I had a good career only a year ago, earning a reasonable amount with the prospect of earning 80 plus k in future. I’m 36. I had a baby last September and I’m just beginning to see how utterly fucked my life is. My ex, the father, is a high earner over 110k and is paying only 450 cms as he’s upped pension. I’m thinking about contesting this. But more than that, I am realising that I am 100% alone, every pick up and drop off etc, every sleepless nights. Ex wants nothing to do with her despite saying he absolutely wanted her and having discussed finances before having her. Yes I realise I chose the wrong man, hence why we are now apart. However even had we stayed together there was no way he would have left his precious work due to child illness etc and it would always have been on me.
what was I thinking? I will almost certainly lose my job, it’s not the sort of work you can do on one hour of sleep a night. I feel victimised as a woman, like everything is a fight… cms, childcare costs, work, etc.
i wish someone had spelled out to me just how crap it is for women sometimes. I don’t see any real future anymore, I used to achieve things and have potential and aspirations and they’re all fast evaporating. Work are already suggesting I will go part time, which actually I can’t even if I wanted to as childcare is so much. I hate it all.