Sometimes I want to be the one held

[Hhhhhhhx]

My son is 1 and with an amazing year, the best of my life, has come a lot of realisations about things

its only recently I’m not sure why I’ve missed aspects of my pre mum life. Like going to bed and sleeping , going out for food as a couple - not having to plan things majorly in advance etc.

but also I’m not sure if it’s lack of sleep (tough time with sleep atm) but I just feel so vulnerable and it’s so hard going about day to day when you’re so exhausted and have about 2 hours sleep each night
youre just supposed to go to work and do your job and no one gives a shit

i just feel very alone and like no one cares and it’sa sad realisation

Does dad live with you ? Is he doing his share of getting up ?

Can.yiu have some akitted 'me time's? Something as simple as an evening bath the 30m alone while someone else looks after your child? When the nights get lighter coukd u go for a wll alone or perhaps in company? If you have a partner and some family support,perhaps you book an overnight stay I a nearby hotel while a partner or family member looks after your son at him? Read someone did this at a Premier Inn on her partner's suggestion. Snacks,TV,shower,PJ and sleep. Treat. Good luck

Sorry for typos,it should say allotted me time.

For me it did get better once they slept OK. I now get an evening to myself and a full night's sleep. It's so tough when you feel you have done a day's work by the time you arrive at the office!

I would do whatever you can to get mote sleep (not easy!) and try to carve out some time for yourself even if it's short bursts. Plus see if there is an ally at work who has experienced similar.