Fed up

[LittlemissMama67]

I'm just fed up.

my work haven't paid me smp because I didn't work enough in pregnancy, (I was in hospital with pregnancy hypertension) I went on maternity in august and haven't had a penny since, waiting on the gov one to be processed.

to keep the bills paid my partner is working 6 days a week which I totally appreciate and can see is necessary but it leaves me at home with 3 children 90% of the time with no one to talk to and the responsibility of the entire house and all the chores.

im so lonely. I look like hot garbage all the time because I just don't have the time in the day to get ready, and even when I do. What's the point. I'm not going anywhere and I'll be covered in sick and Jamie dodgers in 5 minutes anyway. I just see myself getting dressed as more washing to be added to the already ridiculous pile. I'm just fed up.

I'd be going back to work if I were you! Get your husband to take SPL and get your life back!

It would help in many ways but I can't bring myself to cut my time with her short, I'm not due to go back untill May/june.

we wouldn't survive with him being on smp either. He's a plumber and can earn what he wants to an exstent. His smp would be worlds away from what he usually earns

Are any of your children eligible for free hours? Were you working before mat leave?

No not eligible, sons at school he's 8, dd is only 2 and other dd is 8 weeks, both me and my partner work so unfortunately not. Looked into putting her in for just one day a week, £200 a month for 4 days a month. Can't justify that

I'll be fine tommorow it all depends how you start off, this morning our room was a mess, the house was a mess In general and try as I might I just couldn't get it all done and look after there girls. The house had to suffer. My partner got home, took me to Tesco for a bit of retail therapy alone which was nice. And told me to get whatever I wanted out of Stacey Solomon's new collection. He is a good egg I just had a bad day. Hopefully a better day tommorow