Please help, I feel like I’m turning into her. My DC are teens now and although I would give my life for both, I often wonder if I have the same traits as her due to their repulsed reactions to me.
Apparently I’m too much or too overbearing, DD17 hardly tells me anything about what’s going on at school or in her social life, she only chats and is relaxed if her friends are around, if not I get surliness and silence. I’m aware teenagers need privacy, this is more general conversation when I’m checking she is ok.
I’ve at times got tearful and yes, I’ve shouted at them about their behaviour when I feel they’re being disrespectful or I’m not getting help around the house. My anger is due to me being totally exhausted. I talk about this after and give them affection, in fact anything they need. I always try to be open and honest and if I get it wrong I hold my hands up, but it still feels like I mess up🙁.
As I write this, I’m anxious that in what I’m trying to avoid, I am actually being a NPD, I saw the bingo card on another thread and do use same terms with my DC as a NPD would. I am finding it hard trying to do this parenting, even at 50, just feel like a failure. Then my DC roll their eyes and say I’m attention seeking. Feel very guilty and worn out as I write this. Am I narcisstic? What can I do to stop it as I’m scared.