Struggling to cope with "normal" parenting stuff

[Shesasuperfreak]

I've become bitter, resentful and hard. I dont want to be like this.

I am fed up with the mental load and the physical drudgery of life and having children.

I'm on holiday right now and I am picking up after them and dh, answering a thousand questions about where things are and I'm over reacting to everything.

I just want to be by myself and look after myself. If I do get a break I then feel instantly guilty and want my babies back.

I dont feel like I'm a good person anymore and everyone will see it too.

I just want to be happy. What is this?

You're burnt out. Massively. How old are your kids and how much of his fair share does your DH actually do?

You need to carve out at least 3 hours a week that you get all to yourself, religiously, every single week. Push through the guilt.