Tears runing while im writing this, any advice welcome
Im a first immigrant to uk, married and had children 16 years ago, had anxiety and depression couldn't look after my children properly separated from the father straight after second child was born. Had alot of help from social services if im honest. But it wasn't enough i need someone to look after me to no family what so ever. After 2 years of struggle it was between killing all three of us or go back to my country, went back stayed with family anxiety became unbearable medication runing out kids got sick. Real test if you can imagine . My mother looked after kids and religion reasons we can't have boy friends so my mother advice me maybe if I'd had partner ting my settled down abit. Thing didn't work out well with new partner, came back to uk to sort out his paper so maybe things would get better, notice at this time im pregnat, home office denied him visa , so I was back to where i started again. Ex husband wanted so his children who still were with my mother after long 12 of struggle he brought them back with me having only weekend contacts, i was furious and made scene lost my new born child from second marriage and two eldes to their father no contacts until further notice. my heart is broken people don't get me anymore i don't dwel on it anymore but when do can't do anything. Sitting alone crying Is it to late.
One advice mother struggle everyday and night. Hold on bit longer you'll soon see you effort and time put in and every cry you did in silence. Return in multiple. Don't give it away someone else