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I keep crying today!!

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ijustcouldntthinkofausername · 03/10/2022 20:06

My DS is 18mo and I love him unconditionally he is the most amazing little boy ever !!
Today he has been challenging. We're both unwell. DH has tested positive for covid so has locked himself away in spare room.
Me and DS had it less than 3 months ago, yet we're testing negative but have all the symptoms.
So I feel a little mehhh anyway which I have done plenty times before and still managed absolutely fine. But today.. DS has done nothing but cry/whinge pretty much all day. And I keep crying but I don't know why. I just feel so emotional. And today is the first time in his 18 months of existence I have asked myself in my head... what the fuck am I doing? I have said to him so many times today "I can't be doing with this, I can't be doing with you today"

And here I am. He's fast asleep. And I feel so guilty for thinking and saying that 😢😢😢😢 he is my little best friend, my side kick, my world. And yet today I feel awful I feel I've casted him off all day I've just been putting the tv on for him and leaving the room for a break but I feel like I've done that the majority of the day, just been really upset and irritated by him which I never normally am.

I feel awful. Has anyone else had this? Hope I wake up in a better frame of mind tomorrow

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Willbe2under2 · 03/10/2022 20:12

Oh OP, I'm sure others will be along soon with better advice but I just wanted to say that I hear you. I love DD but we're currently going through a bit of a whingey phase coupled with nursery bugs which are then passed on to me and DH. I'm also pregnant.

A few days of TV and not having you 100% won't harm your DS, and will make you feel better. Though unless you/DS are immune compromised or DH is really at bedridden he should be out helping you too.

SBAM · 03/10/2022 20:17

Please go easy on yourself, everything feels harder when you’re not well.
Your son knows you love him, 1 grumpy day doesn’t outweigh 18months of love.
It’s also not the end of the world for him to be made aware of other people’s feelings. So if you still feel rubbish tomorrow, explain it to him. ‘Mummy doesn’t feel well/has a headache/whatever so we’re going to quietly watch a film and cuddle, and later we’ll go feed the ducks’

ijustcouldntthinkofausername · 03/10/2022 20:40

Willbe2under2 · 03/10/2022 20:12

Oh OP, I'm sure others will be along soon with better advice but I just wanted to say that I hear you. I love DD but we're currently going through a bit of a whingey phase coupled with nursery bugs which are then passed on to me and DH. I'm also pregnant.

A few days of TV and not having you 100% won't harm your DS, and will make you feel better. Though unless you/DS are immune compromised or DH is really at bedridden he should be out helping you too.

Thank you @Willbe2under2 ❤️
We're not immunosuppressive but DS had covid July, then croup which he only got over 2 weeks ago (we had to take him to hospital) DH doesn't want to risk him getting covid again on top so he's staying well away.
I'm alright. I've just had a bad day I suppose. Never felt this low before and never suffered with MH as far as I know.
Hopefully I'll wake up tomorrow back to normal. Thank you for replying. And good luck with 2 under 2!! Hats off to you xxx

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SBAM · 03/10/2022 20:17

Please go easy on yourself, everything feels harder when you’re not well.
Your son knows you love him, 1 grumpy day doesn’t outweigh 18months of love.
It’s also not the end of the world for him to be made aware of other people’s feelings. So if you still feel rubbish tomorrow, explain it to him. ‘Mummy doesn’t feel well/has a headache/whatever so we’re going to quietly watch a film and cuddle, and later we’ll go feed the ducks’

@SBAM this made me well up 🥺
😂😂 thank you for your lovely reply xx

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ijustcouldntthinkofausername · 03/10/2022 22:19

Fuck me why did I choose to watch the finale of stranger things tonight 😭😭😭😭😭😭

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