I feel so god damn lonely.
So I have 2 children, 12 and 2. I also have DH and we both work full time. We have great jobs but he has a more social one, I don't. I work with colleagues but they're not friends. Mind you, I have so many friends and we speak throughout the day in group chats.
DH goes to work at 6am, I get up at 7, get 2 children ready, drop at nursery/school(been summer club throughout the summer) and then go to work. I finish work at 5, collect both children, home tea and baths. Then DH arrives home at 7 and everything is usually done for his arrival home. I also have to find time to tidy, shower myself and sort stuff for the following day.
I find myself going days with no normal adult conversation other than my DH who is not boring, but he doesn't fulfil my social interaction needs.
The weekends come and DH often works them, so I have the children. I'm so exhausted and lonely I struggle to take them out some days unless DH Is home. When he is, we will do something amazing as a family.
I struggle to take my children out alone.
I want to. I really do. I just struggle getting them there.
I don't have much time to meet with friends, they all work too and have families. I can't plan things because my friendship group often are like passing ships which is fine because they have their own families and lives.
How can I be lonely if all I do is speak to my friends on social media and they make me laugh and we all chat about our lives. Why am I being selfish feeling like this when some people don't even have any friends ?