Dd is 8 weeks old and we completely adore her. The birth was a straightforward waterbirth and only issue was a 2nd degree tear. We were in hospital for 4 days as she wasn't feeding well but all is ok now except she has really bad wind.
When we left hospital my stitches were checked and all good. By our 2nd community midwife apt it didn't feel right and so it was checked. Turns out I had an infection so was prescribed antibiotics. The stitches had dissolved early. The hospital midwives discharged us in the same apt that I was given the antibiotics, saying to go to the GP if any issues.
They didn't help so once I'd taken them all I went to the GP who gave me different ones for the infection and said it hadn't yet healed.
Those antibiotics seemed to do something but even now I'm still really sore and it doesn't look like it's healed at all. I can't walk for long periods and even rocking Dd for a decent length of time is uncomfortable. I may also have a prolapse.
I have been referred back to the perineal midwife team and for physio but the 1st apt with them isn't until the 28th Sept. The midwife I spoke to said to take it easy, lie around with the baby and don't do any heavy lifting. Which is ok to an extent but I feel like I'm missing out doing things with Dd.
Yesterday I went out for a short walk with her it was the 1st time I'd been out with her by myself. It was a struggle getting the pram out of the house and although I felt glad to have done it, I was really uncomfortable for the rest of the day. I just feel really guilty and even though she's tiny feel I should be able to do more with her.
Is it stupid to feel like this and should I just be pushing through and getting on with things regardless? Sorry for the essay!