Do you think it is childish to remove and block your in laws from social media?
Bit of a back story, the mother (monster) in law has done nothing but act abusive towards me, for basically our entire relationship of 12 years, verbally, and even physically attacking me on the first occasion (whilst I was in the phone to my mother). We had our baby, which we tried for 4 years for and encountered fertility issues and recurrent loses along the way to our beautiful daughter, she made it all about her, announced in social media before I could, without my consent and while I was still telling my family, also announced I was in labour and when our daughter had been born before me and despite her agreeing not to! She has done nothing but make the first 3 months of my daughters life hell for me by causing stress, anxiety and worry about her unstable and disrespectful behaviour, it feels like I've been on edge so much I've missed my daughters first weeks of life, my daughter was also quite unwell and we had a shirt hospital stay at 3 days old, and then again at 10 weeks old so I'm very protective of her. All the stress, anxiety and worry has made me feel really 'off', and caused arguments with my husband and I, something we've never done before, as I felt betrayed, angry and resentful that he let her back in our lives (we weren't talking before I got pregnant because I asked her to speak to her son more and not via the 'family' Facebook messenger as he isn't on there and was feeling really excluded by her again). The last time she came up, about 3 weeks ago, she said she wouldn't be coming up again as there was an 'atmosphere' (my husband and his brother said there wasn't l, so if she felt any it was all her and maybe guilt for the way she has treated me and never apologised or changed for!), she was 'pissed off the baby was asleep and we should have kept her awake' (she also shouted 'wake up' in my babies ear, after I told her she didn't sleep well last night because of the heat so a nap was needed), that I 'stare' at her when she holds my baby (I watch everyone who holds her as I'm watching my baby in case she needs me) and that I wouldn't let her feed her (I didn't want her to feed her, correct, but mostly due to changing bottle teats and my daughter needing to be paced and I know how to do it best). So she removed and blocked me on everything, which I was fine with. Slowly, the rest of his family have been adding passive aggressive posts on social media and removing me, but not blocking. I decided to say about removing toxic people from your life and how much better you are for it, then removed the rest of his family and blocked then, I'm not proud of it but I'd just had enough of it all and there snake behaviour. The thing is, they all know what she is like and have all fallen out with her in the past over various dramas, obviously this is the new one for them all and she is no doubt saying I'm such an awful person etc for stopping her seeing her granddaughter, I have told my husband that she has used her last chance and she won't be welcome here again, around me or our daughter, he can do what he wants as I wouldn't dare tell him what to do, but ideally I would prefer he not see her as she is bad for him too, and has treated him like shit his entire life with her selfish, unstable, aggressive and narcissistic behaviour. I wish I didn't care what his family thought, but I'm just so upset for him because this is all my fault 😔. This is all a consequence of her actions over the years, and had she acted like a grown up, genuinely apologised and changed, we wouldn't be in this situation, but you can't teach and old dog new tricks I guess.
I just want whats best for my family, why can't my husband see that and just cut his mum off completely? It really hurt that he is still speaking to her after all she has done to me and is saying about me now, it feels like he is happy with her behaviour and treatment of me, he says it's to 'keep the peace' as he still wants to speak with his dad, but it feels like another stab in the heart by my husband. I'm sick of talking about it with him now, I've told him how I feel, that she isn't allowed near me or our daughter again and I hope he respects this, he said he does but I can't help but feel he will allow her back again like last time. I don't want to end our relationship, it has been amazing up until now, but it feels like he is against me so much, and that I'm doing this all alone, I feel so lonely all the time as I'm just at home with our baby all day and then he comes home, says hi for 5 minutes and goes on his computer for the rest of the night, I never get a break and I'm so wound up that I'm in pain. I sometimes feel like just leaving, as they'll be better off without me and he can do what he wants with his family then, my daughter will probably hate me whatever I do with them poisoning her anyway, so what's the point? I'm also having terrible nightmares every night about various outcomes, mostly him standing back while his mother tries to kill me and take my baby away, then he just leaves with her. I'm waiting for counselling at the moment, as I'm too nervous taking antidepressants due to the side effects, but I don't know how long it will be, I have good and bad days, but today is a bad day and I just don't know what to do anymore and if I've just made the situation worse for myself? I wanted to come off social media completely, but the baby group stuff is on there and I need that for my sanity I think, what can I do?