Husband and I have no family support whatsoever (living far away) and 2 toddlers. Both are in nursery as we both work. Today was meant to be an annual leave day for me. I timed it for a day they were both meant to be in nursery full day as I am knackered and need the break. Instead my almost 3yrs old is ill. Not ill enough to be well behaved just ill enough to be off nursery but still rampaging through the house.
He's been off all week and at first was very ill which was awful. Now he's okay. We spent the weekend visiting family which is always tiring due to long drive/staying in another house so kids sleeping poorly/constantly having to prevent them from breaking things in other people's houses. Came home and he was instantly ill. Haven't had a single break since and he's up several times a night.
I just want some time where I don't have to look at or be around either of my children at this point. But that's not going to happen. He probably won't be going back to nursery tomorrow either and then it will be a long tedious weekend with no respite and nothing to break it up.
I feel like I'm doing a terrible job parenting this week I have zero energy or motivation to interact with them. I'm just scrolling scrolling to try to stave off the utter tedium. No one tells you how boring it is parenting young kids. Especially when you're trapped inside when they're ill and can't even go out.
I just needed to vent. Feel so trapped and knackered.