Feeling like the worst mum ever

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Can anyone confirm if this is normal

I love my baby (5 month) so much but sometimes I feel like the worst mum ever. Sometimes I don't want to feed or change her and I get my dp to do it. Sometimes I feel like I can't be around her because she annoys me. I feel awful saying she annoys me. Maybe frustrate is the better word? For example she cries everytime I sit for dinner and it annoys me.
I feel like I don't show her enough love or affection.

I should add I've been feeling down lately so doesn't help I imagine. My dp and I aren't doing great and we went from a great relationship, to friends who have a baby to not even that. I suppose my miserableness rubs off on my parenting.

I just am suffering so badly from mum guilt

Sounds like you should ask to be referred to the perinatal mental health team
if you are feeling down. Do you every get a break from
her?

Speak to your HV about PND. It's very common and there's lots of support available.