Baby’s dad

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I’m not sure where to put this sorry I just put it here

DS is 6mo and I don’t know if I’m being dramatic I’m extremely sleep deprived and I’m quite lonely so I keep getting upset and a bit angry

My DP is a bit blunt. I’ve always known this but for some reason now I just feel like he’s quite mean? He says I’ve been babied and I overreact but I feel he could be nicer

I said I felt insecure about my body and he did say he loves it there’s nothing wrong with it, but then says if I’m so bothered to stop making excuses.
i said I’m not I can’t get childcare he says he’ll have our baby but I don’t want to be away from him which is my problem I’m the only person I trust to have him

I don’t know if I’m unhappy with this because of how tired I am (I’m getting approx 1-2 hour stretches of sleep atm) part of me feels like I’m scared to be even more alone which is why I stay. I would have to move back in with parents and I don’t have any friends so likelihood is it’d just be me and DS forever which is fine he’s all I need
but I don’t want to become reliant on him if this happenes

i do love DP but since we’ve had our baby he has changed and again it might be sleep deprivation and this change in our lives

sorru for the long post I’m just really upset and I need to vent

Hi op, just to say that the first year of being a parent is really trying. I have a wonderful husband, but sleep deprivation and parenting pressures made me pissed off with him more than I usually would be.

You have said that you're the only one you trust to look after your baby. I would strongly encourage you to break that mindset. If you don't have time to yourself once in a while you will burn out very quickly. Please do let his dad or your parents babysit for a short time so you can catch your breath every now and then. I'm sure no one will doubt that you love your baby just because you wanted a small break to look after yourself!

All the best