I'm such a bitch. I just smacled my DS1 so hard on his bum, it's left a mark

[suchashitmother]

He's potty training at the moment so is running around with nothing on his bottom. He is not quite 3.

He has been driving me mental all day. He has just (on purpose) tipped his drink on the floor in the sitting room, so I lost my rag and smacked him once on the bottom. I then left the room to calm down.

When I came back in, there is a small, but angry-looking purple mark on his little bottom. Oh God, I can't believe it. I am sobbing.

I hate smacking, there is no excuse. I shouldn't have done it. How can I ever live with it. The guilt I feel right now is overwhelming. I have just given him a big hug and said sorry, and he is quite happily playing at the moment.

Please feel free to tell me what at shit mother I am.

Thank you everyone

I feel much calmer now

I love MN

may I direct you to this thread? it has many tip for coping when the going gets tough

You are not a bad mother. Think most of us have been close or smacked at some time or another. I have certainly bundled my DS into his bedroom, when pushed beyond endurance perhaps a bit more roughly then I should have done. The only thing I have done since then is remember how awful I felt afterwards and I obviously felt like that for a reason and now if I feel I might lose my temper I turn my mind back to how awful I felt for weeks and it calms me down. Also not being scared to say sorry and acknowledge what you did helps. He probably wont even remember it. If you were a bad mother you would have done it and not cared. Don t beat yourself up too much. I have done a lot of jobs in my life, been in the army and everything and nothing has ever been so hard as being a Mum but then nothing has ever been so GOOD either.