Hi everyone, I am new here and writing this post through tears. I am a Mum of 4 children. 10 years, 6 years, 21 months and 12 month old. My last two were born 9 months apart. I am struggling so much. I work part time at home, and have the children at home whilst I work. I am a clean freak I clean constantly. My two youngest are at a difficult age of screaming all the time. Constantly under my feet. Everyone in the house has been ill with a sickness bug apart form my husband. When I was very I’ll I was still working and cleaning up sick, diarea, getting up through the night whilst vomiting myself and feeling like the flu. I feel like I’m doing too much and taking on too much all the time. I spend all week at home and don’t drive and my husband works in the day. I get so lonely and feel isolated. If I ask my husband to take my the shop when he gets home from work he moans and says no. On top of this our marriage is at rock bottom. We argue every single day. I have a vile ex to my eldest two children who causes me nothing but stress day in day out. My husband puts me down all the time. When he feels ill he sits and sulks and feels sorry for himself yet when I’m ill have to get on with it. I’m starting to hate my husband and my youngest two children because my youngest two cry all the time I know babies cry but this is another level. I think they are sending the stress I’m feeling. My in laws are vile and always slating me to my husband. My husband adds to it all and makes it worse. I had an abortion in October as I fell pregnant again. Something I feel terribly guilty for. I just can’t take anymore :(