Hi all,
I’m not to sure where to start, I just feel like I’ve reached a point in life and well to be honest i just feel alittle lost.
I think if i am being honest, I’ve had a problem with control. I struggle to just let life happen without over thinking and trying to control it ( hopefully this makes sense in some way ) ever since I become a mum it’s like every day comes with a spoonful of anxiety not just about parenting, my children just almost absolutely everything it’s like my brain doesn’t know how to let go and switch off it’s made me lose my confidence and cause self doubt I feel that I get bouts of low moods though on the outside you probably wouldn’t even be able to tell.
I feel like I can’t find any balance lately well for the past couple of years and I used to work full time my children went to school and a day nursery ( looking back I probably had a few problems I should have worked though but distracted myself being so busy as a mum and work ) anyway for family reasons I took some time out and I’ve really enjoyed it but now my children are all at school and I haven’t gone back to work.
I would like to go back again soon as I think it’ll definitely help.
I just feel that I’m not happy in myself but struggle to work out how to start making the changes I need too.
Im looking to seek some therapy as I think regularly speaking will help. I don’t know I just basically can’t believe ive got to this point and don’t want to stay here ( I’m sorry I know none of this really makes sense )
I love my family but I just don’t know who I am really anymore I just feel abit empty sometimes and I don’t like it.
thanks for reading my messy post it’s probably a little example of how messy my mind is lately
x