Hi there, I’m loving being a mum but I’m really beating myself up over lots of small things.. for example this morning my baby was sleepy at 9am after being awake from around half 6. He falls asleep on me and today I go to put him down for his nap, he wakes within 5 minutes and I then spent the last hour trying to get him back to sleeping. He wasn’t upset but he wasn’t having it but how can he stay awake for so long and it not do him harm? I tried to stay relaxed, we went out in the pram, came back, I fed again and rocked him but nothing so now he’s quite happy in his jumperoo. However I’m say here feeling awful feeling like I’ve complete messed up this morning and it’s going to impact the day. We’re meeting a friend and baby later this morning to go to a sensory room and I just know he’s going to fall asleep there or be cranky because of this and I think it could have all been avoided if I just didn’t put him down. I feel silly for suggesting meeting with friend and then turning up and being the one whose baby is not enjoying the time. I know I’m waffling now l, but it’s like this every day, not just with naps but the constant second guessing of myself and my abilities and wondering how/ if it’s going to impact him. I guess I’m looking for reassurance that he will be fine and others have been in similar or tips on how not to get in such a state. I have struggled with some feelings before of letting go of control etc and am getting some help professions with that for other aspects of my life. I know I have a healthy baby so why can’t I stop panicking when things don’t go to plan?
We do a lot of lovely bits together so he is happy and I am but I just can’t stop panicking when things go awol.