Lately I have found myself feeling really fed up of being a mum, my LO is 2.5 now, always adored being a mum and doing everything that comes with being a mum despite all the hard parts. Lately though, I can just feel that I can't be arsed, to put it brutally. I lose my patience a lot faster than I used to, I snap at my LO a lot, it's not like I don't have support because my mum helps a lot and I do get breaks (I am single parent with no other support than my mum)
I don't know if it's because I've been getting a bit more free time recently, I've been getting myself out more meeting up with friends, I had been a bit of a hermit the past 3 years, I'm now seeing someone new and really enjoying that, I feel like im enjoying the social part of my life a bit too much recently!! Don't get me wrong, I miss my LO when I am doing other things, I get mum guilt but the second I'm reunited with him and he misbehaves I just think ffs I can't be arsed with this!!
I don't know where the patient side of me has gone, I'm so disappointed in myself as this isn't the mum I wanted to be. My son is my world and I adore him, but I just feel myself resenting being a mum recently, missing my old life and feeling like I'm just not good enough at being a mum. He is going through a hard phase in terms of misbehaving and not listening etc, but I definitely am not handling it the best.