Can anyone please give me some hope that I can get some sort of life back soon 😭
My little girl is 18 months and has been breastfed on demand since birth. We realised at about 8 weeks old that she had multiple allergies so I cut a few things out of my diet and she improved a lot, however I've found the restricted diet really hard to manage, but persevered. She was (and is) not a great sleeper - she woke every two hours or less until around 9 months, then had a good few weeks of only one wake up at around 12 months and now back to two or three wakes a night. Out of sheer laziness and to make it as easy as possible i breastfeed her to sleep every time and now she won't settle for anyone else.
I gently sleep trained a few weeks back and we made great progress, she was only wanting to feed once in the morning, before bed and once through the night and was self settling perfectly. however out of nowhere all that progress seems to be lost and she is back to feeding like a new born both day and night.
I know parenting isn't supposed to be easy and making sacrifices it a given, but I'm not sure how much more I can take. I don't sleep, I cant eat what I want due to the allergies, I cant go out socialising or to the gym or anything I used to enjoy because nobody can put her to bed or comfort her through the night, I have no friends left as a result. I've had to be signed off work with PND due to the severe sleep deprivation on top of everything else. I spend all of my spare time frantically googling and researching how I can improve sleep. My whole life is consumed by trying to fix the situation and I never ever get anywhere despite being so obsessed with it. I've tried a number of counsellors but they just don't seem to work for me.
I don't really know what I want help with. Im desperate to wean but can't do it, because I'm too weak and give in. The same with sleep training. Im just stuck in a rut and feel like there's no light at the end of the tunnel. 😔