Since becoming a mother I have found a lot of uncomfortable feelings about some of my mums choices have been coming to mind and I find it really upsetting.
I love my mum but I can't help now thinking of these things and questioning our relationship. I keep wondering if I am partly an anxious and angry person because of these things.
When I did or said something naughty she used to spend a long time shouting at me, it would go on and on. Until I felt horrible. Then she would leave me in my room alone and I would cry for a long time and tell myself I was horrible.
I remember crying myself to sleep many times. Other times after a long time alone crying and talking to myself telling myself I was horrible she would come and talk to me and I would apologise and she would hug me and it would be ok again.
She didn't hit me a lot, but when she did hit me it would be a case of her chasing me around until she caught me to smack me repeatedly out of anger. She hit me with a slipper once. That sort of hitting happened when I was a teenager too, once when I was driving a car. I absolutely never hit her and wouldn't.
Is this normal? Do you do this with your children?
My daughter is only a baby at the moment, but I never want to be like this with her.