It's kind of a long story...we have been together for four year, getting on well until we decided to have a child together. (He already had a daughter from previous relationship and also suffering from MS, but it didn't really affected our relationship-only his cannabis use,he has been smoking every single night and always said it is helping his illness). When I got pregnant and gave birth,he changed,started to being controlling and later financially abused me so I decided to leave with our one year old son. I ended up basically homeless with our son,living in temporary accommodation, after he threatened me and my brother in law. He refused to give my things back, nor to compensate me for the things we bought together (which was a lot). After he applied for court order and accused me of abducting our child and fleeing the country with my 'girlfriend '(I am 100% straight and always been faithful and respectful to him). As the court case was going, he has been intimidating, laughing at me, verbally abusive towards me, so the judge ruled that we only contact each other in communication book.
But two months ago, the police reached out to me, invited me for interview as my ex accused me of doing things to him. I was interviewed and found out that he has accused me of drugging and raping him etc(along with my 'girlfriend' and also forcing him to have sex with my friends). Obviously the charges were dropped as police did not find any evidence of it... he also started sending messages to me saying that I stole his money from his safe and he wants me to give it back to him...
It's been a year since we left, visits has been suspended by the court, our final hearing was postponed because of his false allegations... (sometimes I think he is being delusional maybe because of excessive use of cannabis?) I am also mentioning he has never supported his son since we left (I applied for child maintenance), he was actually requesting me to supply all the necessities he had for visitations.
I don't know what to do... I feel quilty, for trying to take my son away from his dad, but on the other side ?
Everything he has done to me so far, feels awful, I have difficulty sleeping and getting on with daily things. I lost my confidence. My trust to everyone...but I still don't think I have the right to try to take my son away from him? Or maybe I am just being naiv again?
What would you do if you were in my situation?