I’m overwhelmed think I have ocd and just can’t cope anymore

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After years of trying and ivf I have my beautiful child who’s now a toddler but the last few months since she’s hit toddler age I’ve been feeling more and more overwhelmed everyday. I hate to admit it but I can’t wait for bedtime and dread getting up in the morning. I’ve not told anyone in real life as anyone who’s babysat her tells me I’m lucky and that she’s golden and I should never complain because she’s a dream. Just makes me feel worse for feeling how I do. I love my child she’s my whole world but I don’t feel happy at all, I love taking her out and playing with her I just hate the slog is never ending cleaning washing tidying it’s just all day everyday and I hate it. I find meal
Times the worst she just chucks everything on the floor she’s blw so feeds herself and she manages to cover herself in it and in her hair and I’m just so fed up with the constant mess and cleaning. We seem to both be picking every illness up from playgroups or soft plays aswell so I’ve been ill a lot the last two months with tonsillitis being this weeks illness that’s floored me and I’ve really struggled. Dh is wonderful works hard and takes over when he gets home from work but he couldn’t have any time off this week and I hate asking family so I’ve just carried on but I’m literally
Like the walking dead Thankfully my daughter didn’t get anything this week too. I just find everything so much hard work lately. Getting up getting dresssws washed breakfast cleaning it’s just like ground hog day. On the days we go out I make sure everything is cleaned the night before but I dread coming back to find more washing and dryer clothes everywhere that have to be put away, it’s got to a point where I think I have some sort of ocd as I’m always feeling anxious of my
Home looks clean enough and I’m always feeling like theirs something to do and even when I’ve cleaned I feel like I’ve missed something or not done a good enough job of it. I’ve got no patience either and everything seems to piss me off, for example if I’m making a cup of tea and spill any sugar I get quite upset over it and just feel like I cba anymore for the day because what’s the point. Am I mad? I’ve always been a bit like this but it’s just getting worse

Please give your gp a call and set up an appt to discuss your mental health problems. No one can say if it’s ocd, anxiety, depression etc other than your gp.

Having been there with young children, my only advice is: enjoy finding fun in anything, rest whenever you can, don’t sweat the small stuff and have a support network.
Either your partner, family etc. Make sure you’ve got some recharge time at least once a week.
You sound tired, next tine she has a kip, have a kip with her!

You sound depressed. Make an appointment with your GP as soon as you can!

You poor thing. DS is only 9mo and I feel like this. Do reach out to your GP - it helps just to tell someone sometimes. Your post also reminded me that I need to get off mumsnet and put the washing in the dryer!

Im also feeling like this, total ground hog day, so fed up with all the battles and whining and i also feel stressed to be constantly wiping, cleaning, picking up cushions from the floor etc. Mine is 3, so at least i don't have the food all in her hair issue any more!

I have also wondered if i have ocd but i actually spoke to a therapist (for something else, but we touched on this) who thought it was probably just me trying to retain control of some things when everything else feels so out of my control, which i think makes a lot of sense. Im finding it difficult to have such constant demands.

For me i find it easiest getting out of the house as much as possible when she's not at nursery. Park, museums, gardens, the garden, walk, bike, scooter library, shopping... anywhere really! Then at home i try to get small bits of housework done with her in some way involved. E.g. she plays with water in the shower while i clean bathroom, or we clean the windows together. I have also tried to lower my standards a lot and focus on my top priorities which are clean kitchen, empty bins, food stocked and keeping on top of laundry. Other cleaning is less regular. I have no magic solution, but at least know you are not alone.