Had my 1st baby 4 months ago and 7 weeks after birth my baby was taken ill and we had to be in hospital for 10 days
Thankfully he recovered well after tests and lumbar punctures and more blood tests etc and we were discharged.
However since then I just cry all the time, I feel
Like I've let my baby down and should've protected him from viruses better. Every time someone holds him I run out of breath and feel a knot in my chest and get very tearful.
Everyone around me says I should be thankful he is ok, however I just can't be thankful. I hate that instead of enjoying newborn cuddles like everyone at home, we had to be in hospital.
Is this anxiety or is it a normal for a first time mum. I barely pass him to anyone for cuddles. I'm only relaxed when my DH holds him