So, I am feeling so overwhelmed ATM first of all if any single working parents are reading this, how do you do it? Im not single, but my partner works 5am-8pm Mon-Sat except for in the summer months when his hours drop down. We have a 5 year old daughter and a dog, and I work Mon-Fri 8-2.
I just feel like i cant do it all. I walk the dog twice a day, im up at 6 for that and my daughter comes with me. Then i leave for work at 7.30 dropping my daughter off at breakfast club on the way. Then when i finish at 2, i race home to let the dog out before the school run at 3.00. Then in the afternoons i still have dinner to cook, housework including the washing and all of the cleaning, my partner doesnt do any of the house work as hes never here except a sunday. I have to help with homework and make lunches and everything else including keeping a 5 year old entertained and happy. Sometimes the dog goes for another walk after school, sometimes i wait and take her out at 8.30 so as not to tire my daughter out too much.
Its all really getting to me because i would really love to have another baby, i feel like a mum is who im meant to be, but how can i have another one when i cant manage the ones i have?
I get no free time, even sat here writing this i have a list of things i should be doing.
Am i not managing my time properly? I feel like Im doing something if not all of it wrong, or am i just not meant for this?
I think im depressed, im so sad, and to add to things, i not long ago suffered a molar pregnancy, maybe it happened for a reason, but i wanted that baby so much. So much.
Maybe it did happen for a reason, maybe its the world telling me i cant do it. That i shouldnt.
Work doesnt help, they expect me to do meetings and training and all sorts of other things outside of my work hours and i just, im exhausted.
Im so tired, of everything, and i dont understand how i cant manage the things that i want. Because i want them, and other people have them and they do just fine, so why cant i?