I'm not enjoying parenting

[lboogy]

I've got a 4 yr old and 3 month old twins.
4yr old is extremely energetic . DH mostly takes care of her while I handle the twins.

Girl twin is really chilled and hardly cries. She's just like her sister

Boy twin always gets trapped wind, screams until I manage to jiggle the wind out of him. Then hates not to be picked up if he sees me. He's emotionally draining me. Combined with the two of them I feel like I'm failing my 4 year old. I love her so much and yet I feel resentful that I have these two additions taking me away from her.

I hate even writing this but I wish I could reverse the clock to when I had just one child. It's so hard... and now I have covid so I have to stay away from my eldest. She goes to nursery so if she catches it it means I'll have to deal with all 3 of them alone since DH's job is in healthcare and he needs to be in person at his job.

I don't know the point of this post but I'm just feeling overwhelmed right now

Remember it gets easier!

Have you spoken to your gp about possibly colic/reflux?

Newborns are tough, solidarity.

Your 4 year old will be fine don't worry. It won't be long and you'll be reunited. Maybe have a day out with 4 year old leaving DH with twins when covid free?

I think its completely natural to look back with longing to when things were easier when going through tough times.
I agree with Pp it sounds like regular scheduled time with older Dd away from the twins would make you feel better? Can you take her to a class at the weekend or similar? However, at the moment I think you should congratulate yourself on just getting through - you have 3 month old twins, a preschooler, and covid! You’re doing a fantastic job to cope on any level with that! Things will get so much better as the twins get older! Hope isolation away from your dd goes quickly.

Not helpful but I often wish I only had one 😣 so you are not alone

@lboogy you must be bloody knackered!
Be easy on yourself x

Thanks everyone. I'm bone tired most days . I'm sure better days are ahead . Happy new year ladies

I can't imagine how tough it is juggling 3 month old twins and a 4 year old! Things will only get easier, sounds like you're doing super mama!