5 next month.
I am so so fed up of parenting him. He's such an engaging, chatty, curious child. But my goodness, I hate parenting him.
Everything leads to defiance. He can't seem to behave properly no matter where we go - I always end up removing him from somewhere kicking and screaming while my 3 year old happily trots alongside. He won't tidy. Won't get dressed. Won't brush his teeth. Won't use cutlery. All of this....if we ask him to it's a no, he will only ever do it all on his terms.
He is busy, has zero off switch, has no understanding of people's boundaries. I hate it when he licks or sniffs my face, yet he persists.
He regularly his urine accidents. Poohed under his bed last week. He regularly runs out of the school gate when his teacher hands him over to me.
My mum says I act like he will just do as he's told when I tell him and that kids don't do that.
School have said he's fab and doing well. We have a lot of emotions and violence at home. Although the violence is slowly becoming less frequent. More like a few times a week rather than daily.
School have referred us for a parenting course, at our request. The team at the hospital got us to do a questionnaire but said there are no signs of autism. He's still under the paediatrician - gluten intolerance, dairy intolerance, hypermobility and sight issues. I need to do a self referral to cahms but the waiting list is SO so long that I can't even summon the energy.
Please someone tell me I'm not just completely and utterly shit. I feel if I didn't have the two boys 12m apart then I wouldn't have failed so badly at parenting him