I have no help family help with my toddler . I am exhausted and mentally drained . I’m tired of him. I used to enjoy being a mum when he was a baby but now it’s taking a toll on me. I tell my partner this and he tells me all mums at exhausted and make sacrifices but I didn’t expect to sacrifice my mental wellbeing . I feel broken. I love my son but I don’t have the energy and patience to be that mum he deserves because I’m not okay. I feel very depressed . And I know people will suggest I see a gp and or go on anti depressants but I know this isn’t what I need. I need a break. I need to have the option to have a shower , wash my hair , workout , have some time alone , eat my dinner while it’s hot and be able to sit down whilst eating it, I want to be able to sleep for a few more hours at night. My son is very demanding and takes up all of my time during the day I don’t have time to do things for myself which is fine . However at night time he doesn’t sleep very long so even when I’m in the shower I’m jumping out to settle him back to sleep. I’m trying to complete an online internship whilst he’s asleep and it’s not possible . I don’t even have family to rely on close by who can help. I feel like I’m drowning. I feel like I need to go away somewhere where I can have a break and no have anyone speak to me for a day. I’m loosing the plot . I need to being able to look after myself so I can be a better mum for him but I don’t know how .