Hi all. After a hand hold really. I’ve told my friends what’s going on but they’ve got busy lives and children and I don’t want to burden them any more than I have.
For the last 2 weeks we’ve had one of these cold viruses going round our family it’s taken us out one by one. My 6 week old baby got it eventually and on Monday morning a temp of 38.5 got us admitted to hospital.
Within an hour of being in the ED he was normal temperature and absolutely fine but they still admitted us to treat for sepsis whilst awaiting results as per procedure. He escaped the lumbar puncture which went slightly against procedure, they just used common sense. I felt like they were trying to say sorry for having to keep me in they have no other option.
I’ve been so upset being away from my other two children and my husband and felt so low. I’ve been frustrated because I don’t think anything is wrong with him. But now, at the hopefully last halfway point I’m starting to panic that they will find bacteria in his blood. Overwhelming anxiety and I can’t keep off google. I’ve spoken to the dr and nurse and they think he’s ok and this is all just procedure. His stats and temp have been fine for 24 hours and he’s feeding and alert etc. We had one temp scare but he’d overheated in this crazy hot ward with too long a cuddle from his anxious mum.
I’m going round and round in circles, one minute I’m saying to myself nothings wrong this is a waste of time and the next minute I’m visualising them coming back tomorrow saying that it’s sepsis.
In the grand scheme of things I know I’m being ridiculous and my babies health is the most important thing. But this place is full of so many poorly children and with Covid cases too I feel my baby is fine and we are in the worst place.
I’ve been really humbled seeing these sick children and people with social workers involved. But it doesn’t take away my anxiety about our own problems. I feel like I’m justifying being upset!
In a really bad head space and needed to vent.