When your life is just hard

[chocolatesweets]

I'm a mum to twins (3.5) and they attend nursery class. Gps also look after them one day a week (we are so grateful for this and it's probably kept my husband and I sane).

I've been a stay at home mum since they were born because we couldn't afford childcare. It's been really difficult for a variety of different reasons.

Once the 30 hours childcare was available, I got a part time, working from home job that was great but after a while I wanted something more (more money and the job was also short term).

I applied for a job and was offered another job that I thought would be similar to the one I applied for - turns out it's completely different job conditions - mine much worse. I've been stressed and anxious since I've started. I'm now off sick. Hopefully they'll sort it out.

I was really excited and was looking forward.

I'm also back to the stay at home position if I leave.

I just want to be free of stress and anxiety. I'm exhausted. I won't even begin on the pandemic.

I'm not sure what you're asking here OP? Do you want to continue to work or would you prefer to stay at home, at least until they start school?

Have you looked for jobs in schools? I can imagine Holiday childcare for two is going to be expensive.

I want to work

I used to work in a school. It was difficult.

I do really feel for you working and having twin toddlers will be hard whatever your job is.

Have you spoken with your DH about what will happen in the school holidays? Unless he's a teacher I can imagine it will mean a combination of you taking different holidays and paying for holiday clubs.

No idea 😂