Feeling like a rubbish mum.

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Just that really. I've not been feeling well this weekend, was due to see a friend today for a play date but they cancelled yesterday.
DD woke up at 6am, I left her as long as possible to just chat to herself and play with her teddies. Then bought her into my bed at 6.45am, we fell asleep till 8.30am which was nice. Went out this morning for a walk to town. Came back, had lunch.. She doesn't nap anymore but at the time I used to put her down I have now instilled quiet time. She plays in her bed with the gate closed, has clothes and books and nursery rhymes playing. Just gives me a short while to destress before the afternoon. Today, absolutely nothing has made her happy. I feel terrible and I'm on antibiotics at the moment. Went to get her after ten minutes of quiet time where she was calling out. Tried playing with her and she hated it. I've resorted to just laying on my bed with her with peppa pig on the laptop, she's perfectly content but feeling a bit crap my default is screen time. She doesn't watch TV in the week due to long hours of childcare.
We're cuddles up on my bed and she's quite happy just watching away but it's just made me feel like crap and like she deserves better.
For context, I'm a single parent with no family help. Dds dad isn't in the picture either.

You're not well. Stop criticising yourself. It all sounds completely fine!

Sounds to me like you're doing everything right! Hope you feel better soon X

I’m not well at the moment either - parenting isn’t easy at the best of times, let alone when you’re ill! Stop beating yourself up, it sounds like you’re doing great x

Sounds like a lovely chilled out day for her. You truly have nothing to feel bad about

You sound like a lovely mum, you’re not well and cuddles and screen time won’t do her any harm! Xxx

You do sound like a lovely mum. You are doing a great job please don't worry

Thank you xxx we had lovely cuddles in bed.. I guess I am beating myself up a bit, there's no harm in screen time, she enjoys her little programmes but we also get out and get lots of fresh air on normal weekends. I think I just put too much pressure on myself. X

My two have watched TV most of the weekend & im not ill. They were both exhausted from a busy week of nursery & school and a couple parties they had. Just like adults, kids sometimes need downtime & a quiet day. Nothing wrong with TV so long as it’s not all day, every day with no play or fresh air etc!

You sound like a great mum ❤️

Aw sounds lovely. As an adult I need downtime and kids do too sometimes, TV in bed with mum - blissful! I do the same with my toddler, some days there is no pleasing him and so I let him chill.x

You sound like a really lovely Mam.
You mentioned that nothing has made her happy, may be she is having a bad day. There’s nothing wrong with an afternoon of cuddles and tv. Kids need downtime too. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself to be the perfect Mum. You are clearly doing a great job.

I would have no issue with watching tv especially when there is none during the week!