I lost it with my 18 month old and am feeling guilty

[mummaelle]

I rarely.. if ever lose my cool with my 18 month old dd but I'm a single mum and have been feeling so burnt out and low the last couple of weeks.

We went to pick up a large, heavy parcel on foot, dd was in her buggy. I wasn't in the mood and underestimated the walk and heaviness of the parcel so I sort of used the canopy of my babyzen to balance it.
And my dd was rocking it (the stroller) and I just sternly said "stop f-ing wriggling" and all the way home I was sternly telling her "no" and "stop" and swearing to myself

I feel absolutely awful about it, it's not me at all especially in public dd probably wondering what she was doing wrong.

I am so embarrassed and full of guilt.

If that's the worst you've done, you're smashing this parenting thing. Please don't torture yourself. The truth is, children can be utter assholes. I have two DC whom I love more than anything on this earth, but over summer they spent the entire time arguing, fighting and pushing me over the edge. For the majority of the 6 weeks, my favourite child was my cat, and I spent many hours calling them bellends (under my breath not to them, I'm not THAT bad).
Honestly op, you're allowed a fuck it moment now and then. Your dd won't be traumatised or remember anything in the morning. ❤️

@lyntheyresexpeople

If that's the worst you've done, you're smashing this parenting thing. Please don't torture yourself. The truth is, children can be utter assholes. I have two DC whom I love more than anything on this earth, but over summer they spent the entire time arguing, fighting and pushing me over the edge. For the majority of the 6 weeks, my favourite child was my cat, and I spent many hours calling them bellends (under my breath not to them, I'm not THAT bad). Honestly op, you're allowed a fuck it moment now and then. Your dd won't be traumatised or remember anything in the morning. ❤️

I mean I raise my voice now and then and swear under my breath because she can be a little sh*t and I definitely don't get enough breaks 😂 but never lose my cool!! I think that's why I feel so awful and embarrassed, the person that was in front of us probably thought I was an absolute monster and do this daily 😩😂