TW Suicide attempt- Will my baby be taken off me

[PumpkinSpicedLatte]

I have been suffering from severe PND. I’ve been under the MH team who haven’t helped me, resulting in me paying for private therapy. My daughter is 11 months old now. (I’ve written on here before about my experience, you may have read my things before)
I am still under the perenatal team but with little care. I rang them up Tuesday telling them I’m very suicidal and they said they’d ring me back. They never did.
My husband also left me in April.
I’ve attended a&e suicidal before but no attempt, i was sent away with paperwork on meditation and relaxation techniques. I’ve been told because I talk about being suicidal, they’re not concerned. I also don’t have a low enough bmi to get held with my eating disorder.
Today I woke up, DD went to her Dads for the weekend. I couldn’t hold on anymore and I attempted suicide. Rang my best friend when I realised it didn’t work, she told me to ring 999 and she arrived when the crew did.
The ambulance crew have brought me in but mentioned a dr will have to do a care assessment on my daughter as she lives with me. Will she be taken off Me?
I’m still waiting to be seen. The last thing I want is my DD to be removed from me when I’ve been begging for help ever since I was pregnant (15 months ago I was referred).
I feel like I’m burdening my best friend, I feel like I don’t deserve help.
Can anyone shed some light?

I’m not sure I have much in the way of advice, but didn’t want to read and run.
Children’s social care should be supportive and may be more able to get you more support. for you

I don't know what the procedure is regarding your baby but right now you need to rest and focus on yourself. Your baby will be just fine. Many mums get caught by this terrible illness and once well, your daughter will be back with you as normal regardless. So just focus on rest and getting the help you need to get back to yourself again. It's a very hard thing to go through but things won't always be like this. ❤️

You need to get well enough for you and for your daughter. It’s better she has a mum who is alive and with her than not. I don’t know if she will be ‘taken of you’ as such but if she can be cared for by her dad for a little while whilst you get help maybe, she can come back once you are well again. Take care.

Hello @PumpkinSpicedLatte we're so sorry that you're still having such a difficult time. Please do take a look at our webguide for PND here

We also wanted to share Mind’s information with you – it has practical tips on what you can do when you feel like this and where to get urgent help. Maybe take a look and see if there’s anything which might be helpful right now.

Please do think about exploring some of the options in the links above. Samaritans are there for you too, 24/7, by emailing [email protected] or calling 116 123. You can also see the resources in our Mental Health webguide

Very best wishes from all at MNHQ.

I don't know a great deal about procedures OP, but I do know that there are residential mother and baby units throughout the UK, that specialise in supporting mothers while their babies are in the unit with them. They help women with severe PND and also those with postnatal phychosis. Could you explore this option with your health professionals? A unit like that helped a relative of mine hugely.

I'm so sorry about your experiences. Hopefully your attempt at suicide will spur your health professional on to now give you the support you've been desperate for.

Thanks everyone. They sent me home after being there for 8.5 hours, with information on Samaritans, 24hour nhs line etc and told me they weren’t worried about me and also no concerns about my daughter. Obviously I’m happy that there’s nothing they’re concerned about with my parenting and nobody is going to come from Social services but they dismissed me. The dr told me “after waiting to be seen all day that’s probably enough to put you off attempting again!”

Hi @PumpkinSpicedLatte I don't have any advice but I just wanted to let you know you are not a burden.

I'm so sorry you're having such a low time. Mumsnet is very supportive so please keep talking to us about this.

Also your daughter loves you more than you will ever know

I've been following your story for a long time, I remember you from ages ago and often wonder how you are x

I'm so sorry that your still in a bad place and don't seem to be getting any help, I'm really not sure what the answer is 🤷‍♀️

We are all here for you x