My partner works from 8am to 4.30pm. I'm a stay at home mum with a little girl who is 18months.
I do everything in the house, my partner has never done anything.. even after I gave birth and was sore, stitches, could barley walk. I was also doing everything for LO with next to no sleep, it got so bad I was hallucinating.. whilst he used his baby leave for himself. At a push he would have her so I can shower, go to morrisons for a shop. Now I just order online.
Today I just felt everything getting to me. LO was haveing tantrums, following me everywhere. Its boiling so all the jobs felt more exhausting. When I went outside for space, to vape, zone out and sit on my phone watching some videos. 15 minutes in (if that) he brings lo outside to me and walks away. He said hes got a headache. I suffer with depersonilsation. I basically feel very disconected, foggy and weird. I feel more tired than the average person, I also get frequent migraines that last days. i never complain, I just get through the day. But when he has a headache it's as if I should kiss his ass. He was probabaly lying to make up an excuse to fo back to do focusing on himself.
I just wanted and when I try he brings her to me. He said to me that I live the life and I've got nothing to be stressed about. I asked him if he appreciated what I do for you and he turns it round and says I dont appreciate what he does. I show him I do by makeing sure everything is done for him, his dinners on the table etc I do my part by giveing myself to everyone but myself everyday. I've tried to explain that I can never shut off, I can never relax.. just stop. I get no help, then he says I dont help with Bill's. I'm lucky to get any type of answer because he could be lying there completely blinking me, turning up the TV and telling me to be quiet hes trying to watch the TV. I feel like I'm drowning in responsibility, losing myself and forgetting who I am because all I do is focus on everyone else. I resent him so much.