I have always found it hard to make friends and meaningful connections with people and was a loner kid throughout my childhood. Since my daughter was born it added huge anxiety because I'm responsible for making connections wurh other mums in order for her to be able to socialize and build confidence with people. It's been painful and a struggle but I think Ive done quite well with this, but the summer holidays are looming again and I'm dreading her getting bored and lonely. Im desperately sad that I haven't been able to give her a sibling so I have enormous added guilt over that, and I find it so hard to find other parents that are up for regular playdates. Everyone is busy, has multiple kids, seem to click better or just aren't interested. I feel like that lonely little girl constantly and fear my daughter will suffer because of it.