I feel like such a bad mum but I feel like I don't want to spend time with my kids or my husband. I want to be on my own, I'm exhausted, mentally.
We have twins aged 3 and I've been a sahm since they were born. It wasn't something I wanted but we had to financially. Two part time jobs weren't going to cut it.
I've managed to get a part time job - have been doing this for 2 months. It's been great but the transition has been stressful. The challenges of being a working mum are different and it's all new.
My husband has also had a new job recently and that transition has also been difficult just because it's a massive change - his hours aren't as flexible as before and he's not working from home anymore.
I've also got a new full time job secured but it's not started yet. I'm so nervous for it all just because people keep telling me how hard it's all going to be and that I should be looking at something part time- I feel like giving up before I've started with all the negativity.
It all became too much recently and I was off sick with a virus/chest infection.
I organise the whole house, cleaning , cooking and childcare.
I feel like it's all too much. What am I doing wrong? I wish I had a positive role model.