I got asked to pick up DD from nursery today. 2nd time in 2 weeks. She has sniffles and a slight cough. Still herself, energetic and happy. She has a negative Covid test three weeks ago and we do lateral flow at home every other day.
I picked her up and booked the test ...none available tonight so will have to be tomorrow..9am it is. I'm not sure how long test results take now but last time was about 26 hours. So best case scenario I get the results at 11am Wednesday and go to work. I only work Monday to Wednesday though. I feel like I've not been there much recently due to bits of annual leave, bank holidays and bloody Covid tests. My partner works from home so will just piss off upstairs all day on calls. He rolls his eyes and looks pissed off at me every time DD coughs, saying I should have taken her to the doctor days ago. She was fine and totally herself! She has a slight lingering cough. I'm feeling very guilty. My MIL has my daughter on a Wednesday but is upset with me due to not taking her to the NHS walk in centre nearby. Childcare will be difficult to arrange on Wednesday as she will be an arse about it. Nursery have offered me an extra day to make up (they were apologetic about sending her home again) but if I take that up my partner will berate me saying all I care about is my job which is his favourite line (obviously all while sat on his arse watching TV whilst I'm running raged). My mother will have my DD but MIL/partner get annoyed when I ask my mother for childcare as they aren't hands on grandparents..basically they don't look after her much. The families don't get on.
I feel bad for missing so much work and putting my colleagues in the shit
I feel bad for not taking DD to walk in centre.
I feel bored and depressed at home and I cling onto my job for dear life, it's basically an outlet for me away from my crappy home life.
(I can't LTB by the way).
So I'm not sure what I'm asking really but it feels good to get it down.
Mother's get all the brunt of this don't they whilst men swan around doing what they want (in my house anyway, sorry if this is massively sexist, apologies if this offends anyone).
I'm considering quitting my job which is 30 miles away to start with. Traffic is getting worse and waiting for the nursery phone call is not good. I can't be arsed anymore.