Hi everyone
I've got a baby who will be 7months next week. Since having him I really hate my partner, he hasn't helped with the baby when he was born and I just got so much resentment towards him that I told him I don't love him and I want to break up.
He's one of those people that always sees himself as a victim and I am always the bad guy. I feel like he tries to manipulate me and make me feel guilty for trying to break up.
Last year when I was pregnant in lockdown he told me he was leaving me, packed all his stuff but didn't actually leave ( early lockdown where nobody could go anywhere) I was so mad at him then that when he tried to make up I didn't want to make up but eventually did. After this, up to this date he says that he did that to get my reaction and didn't actually plan on leaving me.
Now that we are in the process of breaking up, he told me that he was going to take the dog to the rescues as he can't find a place where they would let him have a dog. ( I can't keep the dog as he's massive and I can't even take him out for walks especially with a baby). He told me he was taking him to rescues and I cried saying goodbye to the dog and then he came back an hour late saying he couldn't leave him there yet but I felt that he was doing it again to get my reaction more than anything.
Do I sound crazy?
Have any of you gone through hating your partner after having a baby? Did you stay?
I feel like I no longer love him but I have this guilt because of our son.