Hi ladies,
I have a history of anxiety and depression, I was really stressed throughout my pregnancy of bonding with Bub, I did have a traumatic birth but since have recovered and he is a healthy 11 week old bubba. I don’t know if how I feel is normal as I’m a first time mum, I lost a lot of blood so my iron is level 5 (very low) this may be contributing, I’m booked in for a second infusion next week.
I love my boy and think he’s amazing, I care for him and am protective of him, however every time he wakes up for a nap sometimes I’m exhausted and am sick of the same routine of reading books, walking around with him, he doesn’t like me sitting or using the carrier so I’m moving constantly, then some floor time and chatting before back to bed,
Sometimes I feel really bored and over it and just want someone else to interact with him, I’m happy to be around him and watch but just have someone else do the engaging. All I want to do at the moment is sit on the lounge and watch TV... sometimes I can’t wait for him to go back to sleep so I just can sit down and relax. I feel so guilty of this, I just want a relationship with my baby where I can’t get enough of him because I expected to be this way. My feelings are making me sad and now every time I see him I constantly question how I feel which gives me a lot of overthinking and anxiety and it’s all a fog... any advice welcome and thanks for listening ladies