Will my illness affect our bond? 😞

[Dav87]

Hi
I’ve been diagnosed with gallstones following increasing pain in my abdomen, and now have had blood tests confirming problems with my liver - the surgeon believes a Stone has passed into my liver duct, and I am awaiting an MRI to investigate.

All this has left me pretty much bed-ridden, I’m in lots of pain, not sleeping, lots of meds. My husband has had to take this week off work to look after our little girl (9 months) as I’m unable to.

My mental health is suffering so badly thinking about the damage I might be doing to our bond, and worried that she is wondering where I am and why I’m playing with her in the day or soothing her in the night. My husband is amazing and doing everything right, but I’m so worried she will forget who I am.

On top of this is the guilt that she has spent most of her life in lockdown, and now things are starting to open back up I had so many plans for us, but she’s still stuck indoors so my husband can look after both of us. By the time I get this sorted she will be starting nursery and I will be going back to work 😭
I just can’t seem to get my head out of dwelling on everything, and I know this won’t be making me feel any better 😞

Has anyone else been in a situation where they have been ill and unable to look after their baby while on maternity leave, and can offer any words of reassurance or advice please?

Thank you so much x

Yes I was very ill when pregnant with DD. Bedridden in fact. I thought it would affect my relationship with DS who was 9 months at the time because he started to not want to be near me etc. As soon as I was well everything was fine between us and has been ever since.