Anyone else have no support whatsoever?

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I have 2 dc and honestly I have no one.
No close friends anymore, no supportive family no mum, sisters anyone at all.
I’m so so lonely, depressed and anxious all the time.
I used to have a lot of support but around 2 years ago, I was made redundant and struggled to make ends meet. It had a massive impact on my self esteem and mental health, and as soon as my mental health declined everyone seemed to disappear from my life.
I now honestly feel so alone and I have to be strong for my children but some days it seems impossible.
Lockdown obviously hasn’t helped in the way it’s hard to plan or do much.
Anyone else in the same boat? How do you cope?

I think you have to have something that is just for you. It's so easy to lose yourself when you are thinking of what's best for the family.

I'm mostly alone. SAHM to 5 with another on the way, a dog and a husband who works away a lot. I like to keep busy which isn't hard but it's still boring. My family are not far from us but I don't see them much now, pre covid I'd see them often. Friends, don't have many of those and didn't see or speak to them often pre-covid but rarely talk and not seen any in person for over a year. My best coping mechanism for my mental health has been adding in powerlifting, started doing that back in 2017 and couldn't be without it now. Still managing 2 sessions a week throughout pregnancy so far at 60-80% of pre-pregnancy numbers, 25+5wk now. If I've got built up stress I get in our gym and it all melts away. Walking the dog is nice too, though I'm struggling with hip issues so that's not as pleasant as it once was.

How difficult for you it isn’t clear form your post, are you a lone parent?

I don’t have my own parents around and wish I did.

@Chelyanne thank you for replying.
It is very easy for me to stay busy, I could be busy all day but I really miss someone popping round for a cuppa. I really miss just feeling like I can talk to someone when I’m feeling rubbish and on days like that it hits the hardest, because I just sit there and cry and have no one I could talk to.
I admire you doing it with 5, and I think the power lifting thing sounds great, I want to get into something... just not sure what getting my stress out obviously sounds so beneficial

@Lemonelderflower yes a lone parent. So really it’s just me all day everyday.

The thing that gets to me is how much better things could be for my DC if I just had some support. My mental health is awful and I cry almost day, I don’t want them being bought up around this, but I really just want to die sometimes I feel so useless.

OP- that sounds incredibly tough. How old are your DC? Do you work?

You sound very low. It might be worth talking to your GP. But nows the time to build a network: if they're young then start going to toddler groups. If they're older then I've found the PTA a great way to make friends.

@moita DC are 2&3 no I don’t work. I started working again around 6 months ago, as I thought it would help, but it didn’t last long as my anxiety was really bad.
I did toddler group’s pre-COVID it helped slightly to get out but sometimes these places can be clicky.
I’ll try again though if anything just to do something new.
I’ll try GP as well.
I think a lot of it stems around the fact I used to have so much support when I have my first DC enough close friends, partner, family. Now absolutely no one. The loneliness is unbearable.
I don’t feel good enough, my Flat is a dump at the moment as kids have trashed it, but I have no motivation whatsoever, so I’m just useless.