My baby has been in hospital she's 11 weeks and breastfed. They think she has a UTI but she may also have some form of meningitis.
I haven't slept properly in a while. I wrote another post last week because she hadn't slept in almost a week properly and I was feeling the strain as we EBF. I didn't sleep at all whilst we were in hospital, we went in on the Thursday afternoon and came out 1am ish on Saturday as out patients. They wanted to keep us in but none of us (my baby, me or my partner) were sleeping and I wanted to stop them constantly prodding and poking her.
It's been like hell, I've never been so stressed in my life. The thing is she's not had many symptoms and has been generally well in herself, if a little grumpy which I attribute to how tired she must be, this is a blessing but also has made it hard to know I was doing the right thing and making the right decisions on her behalf with little evidence.
I'm a first time mum and I feel devastated that I have let her down so badly, I didn't want to admit her initially because I didn't think anything was wrong with her and the doctors wanted to pump her with antibiotics right away based on the fact she'd had a temperature 11 hours before.
I need other experienced mums to tell me how to cope with this so I can keep calm for her. We're going in every day now for antibiotics. But they still don't actually know what she's got.. if it's meningitis or something else but her spinal fluid wasn't "normal"
I can't believe this is happening