This is going to sound silly, but I feel like my 11mo baby doesn’t really have any particular feelings towards me. I’m the primary caregiver and I work so hard to be really affectionate, present and proactive with her, and I get all the feelings towards her I expected to get, but I don’t feel like it’s reciprocated. I read so many fluffy quotes about how ‘all baby wants is their mum’ and ‘you might not be perfect but you’re perfect to your baby’, bonding starts in the womb and they know your smell and voice before being born etc etc, but even as a newborn I never felt like being close to me made any difference to her. The only time she seems to want me is when she wants to breastfeed. At Christmas we saw some family which of course has been a massive rarity since she was born due to covid, and I was secretly hoping she might show signs of wanting specifically me rather than being passed around a load of randoms, but nope no sign of me being anyone in particular to her. She scratches and bites me quite a lot, including while breastfeeding, which I get irrationally upset about even though I know she doesn’t mean it in a nasty way. Honestly feels like a complete stranger could swap with me tomorrow and she wouldn’t notice. Has anyone else felt like this? Is it possible that I will feel loved by her when she gets older or is she just aloof by nature? And is it totally narcissistic to be worrying about myself when I should just be happy that she’s happy and thriving?