Every day is exactly the same

[tiredftm]

I’m just fed-up really. I’m a first time mum to a gorgeous 9 month old baby. Every day is almost exactly the same, because there’s nowhere to go, no one to see, nothing to do except the same old walks in our very boring and not particularly nice area. Now the weather has turned miserable so even the usual boring walk is out.

I seem to spend all day cooking, cleaning, washing, tidying and feeding DS. I did batch cook a load of stuff last month but have almost come to the end of that now, so this week will be another big cooking week - joy.

I think the crappy weather has made me feel even worse. I just want to go sit in a cafe, go for a weekend away, meet a friend somewhere that’s not the sodding cold and muddy park or go to a baby group indoors without having to socially distance or wear the dreaded facemask.

Not sure what the point of this post is really - just needed a rant. If you got this far then thanks for reading.

Is there anyone you can form a support bubble with? You're allowed one with a baby under 1.

I’m completely losing my mind. I feel so hard done by and I know that’s unreasonable because I could have it much worse. DD2 is 4.5 months and I was so looking forward to being off with her. I have two friends who also have babies but I haven’t been able to have baby play dates or coffee meet ups with them. I haven’t been able to take DD to any groups at all as none of them are running. I’m so bored of just walking about.

DD1 is 7 and home schooling is exhausting! She hates it and it’s hard with DD2 on my lap. I also feel really cheated because I’m a teacher and my maternity leave was my break from teaching for a bit but now I’m at home teaching still.

I’m lucky in so many ways. Both mine and DH’s jobs are safe and my parents live really close and we’re bubbled with them. It’s not helping me feel any better though.

DH and I aren’t getting along either - I think being cooped up in the house due to lockdown and the shit weather is really taking its toll. I don’t think I can take much more!

I feel the same I have a two year old and I stay up late every night till nearly 1am just trying to get some time to myself as everyday just drags on and on especially with this weather now & being stuck indoors (it’s really windy where I am +snow) I’m now a single parent as lockdown pressure has caused arguments. So trying to deal with the sadness of that too. I’m thinking of calling my gp for stronger antidepressants. Love my child to pieces but not show how much more of this situation I can cope with.

Yes, it’s really hard. A good film in the evening when the baby sleeps makes it a bit more tolerable. It will get better with the spring.

@Buttercupcup When this is over I’m having a ceremonial burning of the puddle suit and wellies and if anyone suggests going to a sodding park this summer if there isn’t Prosecco and friends involved I refuse! Yes!!! Right there with you on this. Even my 3 year old is thoroughly sick of the park.

I’m so fed up of Groundhog Day. I’m lucky enough to not be back to work until Jan 2022 so I’m hoping to salvage a summer out of this, especially as this is my last ever Mat leave.

I actually cried reading the same damn story to my 3yr old a few weeks back. It was just the final straw that got home that every day was the same and the next day would be the same, and the next day. It just suddenly got to me and reading the same bedtime story yet again was the final trigger.

So with you on this! I have become so lethargic this week, currently lying on the sofa dreading having to get up to make dinner soon. DS is 5 and every day is just home schooling and TV. We were doing a daily walk (even that was tedious by thus stage) but it is just too cold right now. In pre Covid times I would have wrapped up but it all just seems to much effort to then tramp round our local streets.

Can't wait to be able to go on playdates, to zoos and farms, to NT properties and the beach. I even miss softplay and children's parties.

I feel the same I have a 10.5month old I realised this week that it’s not just everyday that’s the same I’m living the same few hours on repeat just feed, play, nap, walk.

I’m struggling to get any motivation to do online classes (he’s not interested) or come up with activities because it’s just not what I want to do, I want to be going to different places not cutting up a carrier bag to make a Pom Pom!