My baby is 3 months old and I suffered hugely with depression in pregnancy. When he was born I felt like a dark cloud lifted and was so positive and hopeful and really enjoyed looking after baby.
The last few weeks I have started to enjoy looking after him less and less each day. I love him to bits and he’s very cute but everyday is the same cycle of bottles, nappies and crying. When I wake up in the morning I already look forward to bedtime. I run x3 a week and go for a walk with a friend when weather permits. We can’t got far/often because baby hates being the in the pram and the weather has been awful. I miss my friends and I am starting to resent my partner because he gets to work in the day and does our food shopping so he gets baby free time. I hate lockdown with a passion, none of our friends have met baby nor loads of family. I’ve been sat in a house for nearly a year because of shielding during pregnancy when we knew less about Covid.
How little am I enjoying parenting is starting to impact my relationship and I feel guilty because this was a much wanted pregnancy. Does this sound like PND or just lockdown blues that so many new mums must be feeling?