Having second baby after PND and bonding issues

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Has anyone been in this situ - I had a lot of troubles bonding with my first, and love him so much now.
I always wanted 2, and am thinking about TTC again.

But I'm very worried about affecting the bond I have with my DS. I felt so guilty for so long about not being able to bond and now that I have, I'm terrified of doing anything to upset that.

Part of me is scared that I would be able to bond with a new baby more easily, and I would feel so guilty about that.
Has anyone had this, and could share their experiences?

I struggled with my first and had PND. I felt a massive sense of care and responsibility towards him, but I can't honestly say I loved him in the true sense of the word. Over time, i got better and felt better and genuinely did fall in love with him.

We had DC2 when he was 4. By then, the relationship between me and DS was completely set and I wasn't worried about it being impacted. I did worry that I'd go through the same lack of positive emotions towards DC2 but as it turned out, that wasn't the case.

I had had what I thought of as a "touch" of PND with DC1. In retrospect, and as I went through the experience with DC2, I realised that my PND had been significantly worse than I realised. Everything was completely different the second time round.

I think if your relationship with DC1 is now positive and you love him , that you don't need to worry about your feelings being reduced when DC2 comes along.

Thanks @SpaceOp that's really helpful, and sounds a lot like how I felt. Perhaps I might need to leave it a little longer, my son is only 2 and a half so time might help me feel more secure in our bond.
So glad it worked out for you