I feel exhausted, drained, constantly ill with what I can’t seem to describe properly but head ache that doesn’t go away and sore throat. I can’t seem to drink enough water so have cystitis constantly for days on end which makes BFing fucking horrid.
DC is 6 months old in a few days and just found his voice, it’s relentless, screams shouts and whines all the time. Except just after waking up. He’s subdued and plays quietly with toys/me just after waking.
The house is a shit hole, the dog is walking muddy paws everywhere and gets really intense until walked that day. He barks every time someone walks past which wakes DC up for every nap, it’s cruel. The sink drain has just broke so the dishes are piling up.
I need an escape, how does everyone cope? How do you do it? I feel like running away today. DP doesn’t seem to care about mess so gets by on the bare minimum, I lost it this morning so he’s cleared out the kitchen cupboards so it doesn’t look like a bomb has hit but that’s just the icing on the cake.
Trying to get DC to sleep everyday is awful, that’s a whole other thread, he whines kicks and scrams me if I feed him to sleep and he doesn’t fall asleep quickly. He keeps screaming his face and makes it bleed, won’t wear mittens and his nails are as short as we can cut them. I’m doing such a shit job at all of this.
Sorry. That was longer than expected.