I have a beautiful 5 month old DD she’s amazing and I love her to bits but I’m really struggling with my own head tbh. Before I fell pregnant I was on antidepressants and I stupidly came off them as soon as I foundation out I was pregnant. I had a really rough first trimester as my partner was so against me keeping but I’d been through miscarriages before and I didn’t want to have to terminate. He’s an absolutely amazing dad now and no doubt that he loves her but when I had my baby girl I was diagnosed with PND and i worry about everything. I had thoughts of my partner hurting her and I started to get very angry towards him when he’s only trying his best. I want us to get better but for months now it’s just been different. I don’t know how to get over the worry about everything too. There’s not a lot of support around at the minute with Covid. I’ve also just gone back to work to do some back to work days for Christmas and I feel like people think I’m a rubbish mum. I just don’t know what to do to make things better anymore. My head is such a shed.