Is this how all Mums feel or is it just me? :(

[KateEC91]

I have an 8 month old baby and am currently on maternity leave.
I overthink absolutely everything. I worry if the love I have for my baby is how it should feel? Why am I not loving mat leave? Why can I not always think of ways to entertain my baby? Why do I get bored playing? Why do I feel hugely overwhelmed with having a life to take care of? Does that mean I don’t love her? Why do I crave my own time?
Every move I make (no exaggeration), I worry that i’m doing it wrong. If I’m out shopping with my baby I think ‘am I interacting with her enough?? Should i be talking to her more? What can i talk about??’
I didn’t think I could have children, spent pregnancy in a total state of severe anxiety and am currently having CBT now. My question really is, aside from perhaps my thoughts being persistent and bothersome, are these sorts of things most first time mums think, or is this just me?
I so wish I could have other mums experiences. I hear so many women talk about this overwhelming love and absolutely blissful first year. I have spent mine drowning in self doubt and wondering when I will ever feel like myself again :(

People laughed at me for breastfeeding the first time I took ds1 to a baby group.

I had the opposite - felt judged for feeding formula by the “breast is best” brigade.

Thank you all so much for your honesty and kind comments. They truly have made me feel a huge sense of relief and definitely less alone. I really really appreciate it. Days like today are especially tough when my baby is going through a sleep regression and so very needy all day with lots of crying. I find myself getting frustrated and then worry even more that I’m a terrible mother. I’m hoping, as everyone seems to say, that things get easier.
Thank you all once again ❤️

My DD is 3.5 years old and I still feel like that

The self doubt I mean