Ready for some me time!!

[popgoesperfection]

Don't get me wrong, I adore my boys, I would die for them, they're my world and I wouldn't be without them but OMG I need some time to myself. Ds1 is 5 ds2 8 months, and what with Covid and lockdown and oh working lots of hours I don't feel like I get time to even pee in peace. They're good kids, ds1 is so helpful and a lovely lad but wow can he talk, he doesn't come up for air ALL day!! I would just love an hour of peace, a hot coffee and a programme of my choosing on tv. Anyone else feel the same or am I a dreadful mother for feeling like I need to be me, not mummy, cook, cleaner or general home slave?

Not all. Do you have a partner who can take the kids for an hour?

I'm with you - I have the same ages at home but mine are both girls. The incessant talking and needing input is hard. Dd2 is such a nap dodger so dd1 tries to entertain herself while I'm struggling to get the baby to sleep, but then gets the hump because she feels left out, and dd2 still refuses to nap, so I'm wrangling 2 grumpy, hot children

Eugh @Findahouse21 it's relentless some days isn't it !!
I do @Lockdownseperation but i feel like I shouldn't ask him to when he's been at work all day (stupid I know).

But so have you. You will be much happier and probably a better mother and wife if you have some time to yourself.

programme of my choosing on tv

Ha!

I have four children between the ages of 5 and 15 and have not had my choice on the TV for 15 years - it's just not worth it. As soon as I got to the age where the littlies were in bed and we had an evening without baby interruptions, so we had teenagers who were up until I go to bed anyway.

I stopped bothering with the TV years and years ago.

Yes you are probably right @Lockdownseperation. I suffer with depression anyway and this feeling of not feeling like I have a second is really getting to me.

It been a long lockdown and I was like this, my children are just 4 and just 1 so I talked to DH and we are being really good at carving out time for both of us. DH is much better at making it happen for me then I am. It’s making such a huge difference.

@FATEdestiny

programme of my choosing on tv

Ha!

I have four children between the ages of 5 and 15 and have not had my choice on the TV for 15 years - it's just not worth it. As soon as I got to the age where the littlies were in bed and we had an evening without baby interruptions, so we had teenagers who were up until I go to bed anyway.

I stopped bothering with the TV years and years ago.

That's lovely for you if you're happy with it, but OP sounds like she could really do with a break!

@popgoesperfection lockdown is right, you need to get your OP to help you out.

I have spoke to my dp tonight about how I'm feeling and he has been amazingly understanding and is going to make sure I get some time to myself.
@Huhokthen Thankyou for that!! I don't know why some people have to try and make you feel worse or like your pathetic because it doesn't bother them!!!

My two are similar ages and I often feel similar. Great that your OH will help.
I also insist on quiet time after lunch whilst the baby is napping. Sometimes I only get 5mins. Other times it’s 45mins. At first my DS resisted it but I just explained to him that even if he doesn’t want a nap or quiet time himself, I need some quiet time so that I’ll be more fun and have more energy in the afternoon and not be grumpy. He gets it now. He just plays independently nearby. Might be worth a try.