As subject says I currently have a 16 month old little boy, he is just the best and has been such a great baby, but the last few months he's gradually got more and more wingy, emotional and clingy.
I get up with him every morning we go and walk dogs together come home have breakfast watch some crap kids tv (the relatively watchable stuff so I have chance to wake up properly and have a relatively peaceful cup of tea) I'm home all day with him everyday apart from 6 hours a week where he goes to nursery. This 'me time' is now consumed with medical appointments as I can't take him with me to them.
He was showing some positive polite signs if he wanted something he would always say 'pease' which We have assumed was please and would say Ta on some occasions although still getting to grips with this.
this has totally gone out the window if he wants something (normally that you have) he will just absolutely lose his shit instantly if you say no or don't respond to him straight away, he sits up on the sofa with me when we do watch a bit of tv but he's not clumping all over me, he's all elbow and knees digging into me as he climbs all over he's pelted into my tummy on numerous occasions (I get he doesn't understand there's babies in there and as much as I know they're still small (14 weeks) and well protected I'm worried one day will be too much and I will end up losing them).
God forbid I should put him down from a cuddle or try and leave a room/the house to do something and leave him with my partner (his dad) he will just scream for ages. Nothing my partner does is good enough for him he just wants mum at the moment which normally would be fine cause I love him more than life but I just need some space sometimes. I prey for bedtime so I can just relax for a bit or go bed myself! I've picked him up from nursery on a few occasions recently and they have said how he's been extra emotional fine one minute and not the next. He's started crying when I drop him off ( which in my hormonal state I cry too so I have to try and cry when he can't see me but I still feel a twat for crying!)
My partner is doing my fking head in, daily I just want to tell him I'm done. When I'm not sure that's actually what I want, he's hardly working due to covid so at home a lot and when he's not asleep which seems like forever, he's watching annoying loud videos on his phone, I could just punch him, I'm hormonal and emotional as hell and I just don't feel like I'm coping now at all and I'm getting myself worked up and upset thinking how the hell am I suppose to cope with current child and two newborns. I don't have family close by which is probably more of a blessing than anything cause they do my tits in when it comes to my little boy or now they know I'm pregnant it's just constant look after yourself blah blah blah I know I have grown a child before and he turned out just lovely. I'm sure I can manage again.. I'm not working at the moment as I'm 'shielding' due to underlying health condition (I work as a HCA In the local
Hospital) as well as now being vulnerable due to pregnancy. As much as I hated working around the covid situation I was always worried I'd bring something home I am seriously missing my doing something for me. All I have at the moment is life at home, My main friend locally moved back towards he home for her partners work and my other friend is going through a separation at the moment and isn't exactly there to call upon as she's going through her own stuff so trying to even get hold of her is impossible at the moment..
I think I needed to just get that off my chest but also reassurance that I'm not useless and it's ok to feel how I am. I don't think I'm a bad mum by any stretch of the imagination I just feel like I'm really struggling and need to know if this is normal.. TIA thank you for even reading this long paragraph of crap!